Hey everyone! It's Martha lol DUH.... haha
ANYWAYS!
I've changed my screenname on here to Oorah20
So put the new "sn" on your friend list!
Love ya all!
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Yeah today was alright. School was kinda fun.... I guess IDK.... But yeah when I got home I was kinda thinking about Tom..... ha don't ask me why but I was and I found a message that I kept because it made me feel good when I read it.
nekidd64= Tom
mqcards20= ME!!!
nekidd64 (11:20:58 PM): you know what?
mqcards20 (11:21:02 PM): what
nekidd64 (11:21:32 PM): i love you with all my heart and you are the only girl for me
mqcards20 (11:22:29 PM): You don't know how much I loved hearing that!
After I read it just now it kinda brought a tear to my eye. I don't know if it's a tear because I miss him or if it's a tear because I'm so happy I don't have to here him lie to me anymore. I found it ironic that he feelings for me could change within one night, from loving me to.... well, cheating on me.... ha.... For those of you who read this, I PRAY TO GOD, that you never have to feel what it feels like to be cheated on. And if you do get cheated on tell me , because I'm gonna beat the living crap out of that person for you. Because NO ONE and I mean NO ONE, not even people I don't like should have to feel the HUGE slap in the faca you get when you find out, and the broken heart it leaves you with.
CURSE all you people who have cheated or even THOUGHT about cheating..... before you do it put yourself in the shoes of the person you are cheating on.... Then see if you would want to be cheated on. And if after you thought about and you STILL cheat on somebody.... then you aren't worth the time of day.....
The bad thing is... even though "you" cheated on me..... There's not a thing in the world I can do to get you out of my mind or heart. You've just occupied it forever. AND IT SUCKS.....Current Mood:  gloomy Current Music: "When I Think About Cheating" Gretchin Wilson *spelling* |
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 01:40 pm
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Thanksgiving was alright. It was, I think, the hardest day I've had since my Dad has been gone. I cooked all day and thought of my Dad every second. ~*~I miss you daddy LOVFE YOU!~*~ I invited Jose over because he didn't have dinner with his family on Thanksgiving. Then James called and we headed over to some house in Taylor. That was fun hahahahahaha.......... :) Came home and Jose and I went and rented some movies. we got.....
1) Scooby-Doo 2
2) Godsend
3) White Chicks
Came home watched those then we ended up watching Shrek 2, too! lol. We pulled an all nighter it was fun haha. We went shopping the next morning! Crazy stuff....
Today was alright didn't really do much I think I'm gonna start writing my christmas cards. Get those done and out of the way!
Let see what else is there to talk about?
Oh! My single life is going G-R-E-A-T!!!!! Haven't talked or thought about my ex in a while! fun stuff! well I'm out ya all!Current Mood:  pleased |
It's strange to hear your voice, I did not expect for you to call
You wonder how I'm doin, how I'm holding up since you've been gone
Well, how am I doing since you did, what you've done to me
I can't lie, I sometimes cry, when I think of how it used to be
I keep my friends with me, I stay busy, and I don't get much sleep
Baby that's how i'm doing since you did, what you done to me
Well now wait one minute, I failed to mention, those tears I cried are tears of joy
Because it was no fun, there under your thumb, and now that we're done
I'm getting right, every night, with every single, every loving boys in sight
Well, how am I doing since you did, what you've done to me
I can't lie, I sometimes cry, when I think of how it used to be
I keep my friends with me, I stay busy, and I don't get much sleep
Baby that's how i'm doing since you did, what you done to me
Well, when all my friends heard, what a you know what you were
They took me out on the town
But then I heard our song, and I danced along, but it felt all wrong
Cause he was sweet, he let me lead, he never took his ever lovin eyes off me
Well, how am I doing since you did, what you've done to me
I can't lie, I sometimes cry, when I think of how it used to be
I keep my friends with me, I stay busy, and I don't get much sleep
Baby that's how i'm doing since you did, what you done to me
Well I don't know what you were thinking, running round on me
Well, now you say you're sorry.....well honey I agree
So, how "ARE YOU" doing since you did, what you did to me
Boy don't lie, I know you cried...cause you know how good it used to be
Yeah, tell me does the thought of, loosing my true love, make it hard to sleep
Baby how "ARE YOU" doing since you did what you done to me
Now how "ARE YOU" doing, now that you know how I'm doing
Since you did what you done to me
P.S.
So long babe.....
Love always,
Your LOVING "EX"
MARTHA!!!!! ;) ~*~Oh tell your Mommy I said Hi! NOT!!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha~*~Current Mood:  revenge is a bitch Current Music: How am I doing? |
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So yeah yesterday was my Halloween Party at my house. We had fun! lol.... P~Fund thanks for the help lol and I hope my car didn't scare you too bad lmao.... HAHA. Jessica thanks for helping me bake! That was sweet of you! Stilly thanks for helping me plan the whole thing. It was a lot easier having all the help. Oh and tell your Mom thanks for the oreo cake that stuff was AWESOME! lol....
Today I didn't do much. Woke up around 11 went to Wal-Mart with my Mom and little Maria. Came home cleaned the house. That was fun haha.... Then went on here and talking to Sean and Adam that's about it. Well, I'm out. I'll talk to ya'll later!
Oct. 30th, 2004 @ 07:45 pm
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Oct. 23rd, 2004 @ 07:53 pm
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Got the report card today. Heh. That sucks. My Mom is finally not mad at me anymore, but my punishment has me upset. I'm so upset I'm sick to my stomache. Then I got my phone bill..... yeah it's stupid. they said I didn't turn in my payment from the month before so I have this huge phone bill. I just can't stand my life sometimes. Grrrrr.
Other than that life has been good. But that's all I have to write about. BLAH....
Oct. 23rd, 2004 @ 07:41 pm
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You are pure love. Pure and deep. You not only want
to but NEED to find your one true love. You are
not afraid of any challenge for your love, and
it is something to truly treasure.
What kind of love are you?
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Oct. 14th, 2004 @ 03:58 pm
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| » The shadow of Lindsay Biro's dreams..... OKKKKKAAAAAAYYYYY! |
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This should be on everyone of our Melvindale signs.......
Welcome to Melvindale
Where the back-stabbing and trash-talking
NEVER ENDS!
What do you think? I think it fits perfect. Damn fake people..... Poop on all of you. And if you think your poop don't stink and that you are better than other people..... Come talk to me.... I'll set that staight and tell you what you really are. ha. Maybe harsh but someone needs to have the balls to tell these people the truth.
And don't talk crap about my friends, because it's immature. So get a life and get your head out of your butt. And look at what the real world has to tell you. I think it's trying to tell you "That you need to give respect to earn it."
Anyways Homecoming was fun! Thanks James you're a sweetheart. Other than that I've been busy with basketball and what I call Drama in Melvindale. AKA Dramadale. I'm just sick of some people. And I have no problem telling them. Well I'll talk to you all later! peace!
Oct. 12th, 2004 @ 10:29 pm
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The Float is going alright... I just wish people would quit fighting. But yeah anyways... we're not getting into detail.
Had basketball all week as usual. BLAH. We won our league game yesterday! We are 1-1 in our league now! We play Highland Park tomorrow at home at 7:00.
Other than that nothing much has really been happening. OH! Mike came over... EH... It wasn't that bad.
I've been talking to Tom a lot! He makes me so happy. I wish I was still going to his Homecoming... :( I miss him. But I'm going to go see him NOVEMBER 20! I can't wait! I MISS JON AND LAW too.... :( I finished up Jon's birthday gift today. Now all I have to do is send it to him.
I think I fell for you......
"A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose."
Oct. 6th, 2004 @ 10:50 pm
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So yeah I haven't been on in awhile.... So yeah now I'm goin to Homecoming with James.
THIS IS FOR A CERTAIN PERSON..... QUIT BEING JEALOUS! SHE LOVES YOU AND WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING TO HURT YOU. YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO TRUST..... HOW DARE YOU HURT HER..... YOU HAVE BALLS MY FRIEND... YOU HAVE BALLS OF STEAL!
Oct. 2nd, 2004 @ 01:13 pm
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School was alright... nothing to brag about. ha.
Then after school we went to Mr. Leroy's class to talk about the float. Came home went to the bank. Talked to Tom for about an hour. Poor thing is still upset about his Homecoming. I love him though... WITH ALL MY HEART! "XOXO"
Then I went to basketball practice. It wasn't bad at all.... HEY STACY!!!! STOP!!!!
Came home people came over to make flowers for our float. We had fun lol. Good lord. People went home and yeah that's about it.
FLOAT MEETINGS
Wed. 9/29 7-?
Fri. 10/1 3-7
Sat. 10/2 1-?
Sun. 10/3 2-?
Sep. 27th, 2004 @ 10:03 pm
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So yesterday I got sick... Isn't that just great... Then later that night I went to Lindsay's house for her birthday party. WOW... we had fun lol. FUN times. ha.
Then today I went to church came home did some chores. That's about it.
Oh well the latest news with me would be...... Oh that I'm not going to Tom's Homecoming anymore, because he has a new job and he has to work on that day. Oh well. I still Love him though! But the bad thing is I'm stuck with a damn dress that I'm probably never going to wear. How wonderful. How come I'm always the dateless one? WTF..... Shoot I'm not even going to MY OWN Homecoming. Now that is pathetic. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR............ Anyone need a dress call me.... I'll sell it to you.
Sep. 26th, 2004 @ 03:00 pm
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Today was boring, but hey what else is new.... Went to school. After school I went to our Student Council Meeting. When I got home my Mom and I went shoe shopping for me for my Homecoming dress. I didn't find one. So... I called Tom and talked to him until basketball practiced started. Practice was alright.... Tomorrow is our first league game. We play River Rouge at home... 7:00!!!! Come and watch! $4.00..... to get in.
TOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.
It's been two months since my Dad died...... :( I miss you Daddy.... I love you with all my heart R.I.P.
Sep. 22nd, 2004 @ 08:05 pm
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| » LONG TIME NO SEE....ha |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDSAY! ((bff)) LMAO
well yeah I haven't updated in awhile. Nothing much has happened. Just mainly basketball and school. I've been talking to Jon online. Tom and I are doing just GREAT! hehe..... what a goof.... lol. OH... I'm going to his Homecoming.... it's on the same night as mine but oh well lol. And the parade for our Homecoming is dedicated to our family so yeah. My Mom, Brother, and I have to ride in the parade. Well I have to go because people are coming over to start working on our float. So I'll talk to you all later.
Sep. 21st, 2004 @ 01:16 pm
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Had school today... It was alright... I guess. IDK... um..... yeah....
Went to Subway for the pregame then went to the JV game..... Tom IMed my phone and told me to call him. I talked to him for like an hour! lol.... ~*~sigh~*~ HA I love that guy! "XOXO"
Had my game but we lost... I rather not talk about it though. On my way home Adam called. Then Sean called. Then coach called.... all within 10 minutes fun huh?
Well I just got out of the shower and yeah Not doing much of anything. But yeah ttyl.
Sep. 14th, 2004 @ 10:21 pm
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Yeah so in school nothing really exciting happened. After school we had our first class meeting of the year.
When I got home I got ready for the concert. Went and picked up Mel and yeah... we went. It was Hank Williams Jr. He was pretty good! While I was there I saw my Brother there with Mr. Calhoun and Shaun. Then after the concert Mel and I drove around for a few and yeah that's about it.
Now I'm home.... BORED with nothing to do... BYE
Sep. 10th, 2004 @ 11:50 pm
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Have you ever felt like you were only there becuase someone was obligated to have you there. Or have you ever felt NOT wanted. I DO! And I hate it. It sucks so bad. It's humiliating to know that, that one person only has you there because he seems forced to have you there. I feel like there is no point what so ever for me to even be there none the less even show up.
I just don't know what to do anymore. It seems like everything in my life is being taking away from me one piece at a time or either friend just don't want to be apart of me anymore. IDK. I've tried hiding how I've felt, but that doesn't work. So I thought I would vent on here. It's like now... I just wait for something else to go wrong, someone else to leave my side, or someone else to stab me in the back. I'm just plain out sick of it.
I feel so low.... depressed.... And I have to be stong for my Mom and my Brother but it's so hard. I wish I could just wake up from my dream and start on with life again. Be back in my regular life... with my Dad here. But after awhile you figure it out that it's not a dream and that it's ALL reality, and that you are NEVER gonna wake up from this BAD dream that you are living in. Sometimes I wish I could just stop the world, put it on pause. Just so I can walk around by myself and look at things. Try to figure out things. It's like life is going through fast forward, and everything is getting rushed all at once, and then you have no time to just think.
It feels better to get things out.... instead of having it all bottled up, now all I have to do is change how I'm feeling.
Sep. 9th, 2004 @ 09:50 pm
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